Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Battles Lost

I'm no prodigal son
but lately
I've lost more battles
than I've won.

I'm nothing new under the sun;
it's just I've
Screamed silent for an
iron lung.

I'm clawing at the walls
of my own
Self-centered sickness
of psyche.


Waiting for my song to be sung
Waiting for that bell to be rung
Telling my jury to get hung.
Screaming, Screaming alone for my
Iron lung.


Three characters:
Arrogant.
Self-interested.
Shallow.
I never meant to be
Those things that somehow
became me.


Time to stop waiting.
Time to stop taking.
Time to start giving.
Time to start living,
else scream forever.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

I Am Scoti, I Am Picti, I Am Albany

The pipes, the pipes
are calling me to war.
The drones strike resonance
in my bones.
I feel my forefathers hands
in my own, gripping my hilt.
       I am the Sword.

The pipes, the pipes
are calling me home.
The drones remind me
of the loom.
I feel the wool in my hands;
Highland homespun pride.
       I am the Tartan.

The pipes, the pipes
are calling me to the plow.
The drones thrum resonance
in the stones,
as the cas chrom turns them up
Freeing granite from earth.
      I am the Bere.

The pipes, the pipes
are calling me to sing
The drones play harmony
in my heart;
I hear the bard and fili
Signing from Border to Highland.
       I am the Poeta.

The pipes, the pipes 
are calling me to woe.
The drones echo in my soul
singing of death.
I feel the passing of years
That brought winnowing of free Scotland.
       I am Albany.

Friday, February 4, 2011

The Story Of Drib And Yab

I had thought this story left at home in the desk at which it was written in my mother's basement. I'm not clear on when I wrote it precisely, only that it was the first time I had written for fun, that I had attempted to create any semblance of fiction or characters. I believe it to be from around 6th grade, so the age of 10 or 11.  As far as it goes, I rather like the characters especially Drib. It has some of the abrupt and awkward phrasings that I suppose characterize young writing, but at the same time, these bring perhaps the most humor to the piece, at least for me. Anyway, without further ado, Drib and Yab.


THE STORY OF DRIB AND YAB
by David Aitchison ?(2000-2001)?

Drib plunked down in his seat. He was tired. Tired from too many days for too many years working in the farm fields.

"Blast the fields!" he said in disgust.

As he ate dinner he though back to the days long ago when he had aspired to be a knight. he had received his knighthood, but then came the cursed Crusades. He had objected to going, saying it was a waste of time; that they would never succeed. For this "blasphemous" belief he was labeled a heathen. He had plowed fields since then. He was now a peasant. The lord of the nearby castle, which had once been his, was now in charge of him, and took what he wanted.

Yes. it had been long since those times, but he still maintained a great bitterness towards those who had ruined his dreams of knighthood. To cheer himself, he decided to travel to the nearby town for the day. 

He must look his best. As he looked at himself in his mirror, his last remaining treasure, besides his armor and sword, he again notice his immense size. His white bearded face with its bright blue eyes stared back at him. He was still amazingly fit for someone going on 50. In a few minutes he was out the door riding to town.

As he rode in through the soaring gateway, he marveled at what the combined might of men was capable of. The great citadel's mighty walls had withstood many a siege in their time. After stabling his horse , he wandered in the market. There he saw a strange dark colored young boy in chains. He was being held by several rough looking men. The men were treating him most brutally. 

"Now, we can't have that" thought Drib. Out of pity decided then and there to buy the boy to save him from this evil treatment. The boy was well built  for his age, which he estimated at 13 or 14. He had dark brown eyes, and black hair. He looked as if he had seen better times. He was like other prisoners from the crusades, yet different. Darker in skin tone, Drib decided. After walking away from the market with the boy, he found that he spoke English amazingly well. The boy told him that his name was Yab. When Drib asked him whey he seemed different from the other Yab said,

"I am indeed different from what you usually see here. This is because I am from a distant land, beyond the lands ravaged by war.  I was sent as an observer by out glorious Sultan Shuja Amer Rahman.  I was accidentally captured and mistaken for one of of the "heathens" as your people call them. 

"Why did they send only a boy?" asked Drib.

"They thought I would be less noticeable, and, for a time, I was." was Yab's answer.

Drib decided it would be best to talk in a more private place. He returned to the stable and purchased some food for Yab at the Tavern. Yab ate his meal as they rode to Drib's house. 

"So tell me about your homeland", said Drib. 
"Oh, it is a vast land of forests and soaring mountains. It has seen better times though", said Yab. 
"Why's that?' asked Drib. 
"Well, in recent times, a great daemon has been attacking our famrs. many men have died trying to kill the beast. I believe you call them dragons here in these lands" 
"How terrible!" exclaimed Drib. "And no one is able to kill it?"
"No! Absolutely no one! Our greatest warrior barely escaped with his life" said Yab.
"I too am a warrior!" exclaimed Drib. "I shall travel with you to this land."
"You would do that for  one you barely know?!"
"My code of honor demands it" said Drib. "Do you know how to use a bow?"
Most certainely! All of his celestial highness's servants must!"

Drib gathered his weapons and armor with haste. They departed for town in half-an-hour. With them they carried food and water for several days. With his remaining money, Drib bought an enchanted bow which shot arrows that never missed. This he gave to Yab. They rode to the nearby port and boarded a ship.

After many month's travel they arrived in Yab's homeland, Machamya. Around them they saw many signs of the dragon's wrath. They came to the palace. Here they were greeted by royal servants. Drib gathered a party of the land's greatest warriors. They set off for the dragon's lair. After many days travel they arrived near the dragon's lair. A great growl issued from the cave. Drib's party fled in all directions. 

"Who dares draw near the home of  Kil'Jaedon Lord of Terror!?"
"I dare!" said Drib. "I am Drib Oneron, knight of England!"

And so they came together in Mortal Combat. Many say their struggle echoed throughout the land. Finally when they were at the peak of their struggle, Yab came and shot the beast. This gave Drib his opportunity. He struck the beast a mortal blow, and severed its vile head from its body.

Drib returned to the palace. The Sultan rewarded him richly. Yab decided to return with Drib to England. Drib was given his knighthood back after that. He lived in a great castle. Many say that he treated those people under his protection with great kindness. After some years, he married and lived happily for many years. 

THE END

Written By Moonlight

I don't know the name of this beach. All I'd have to do is look it up I'm sure. But really the name is meaningless. it's just a thing man has tried to attach to this place. Just like man tries to attach things to all places. Things of his own making. Rather like he attached those monstrous hotels to this island. Paradise, indeed this was. Still is, out here by the sea. In there though, it's not like this. A casino? Little men and little women, going frantic over little (no matter how large in sum) money. They should be out here, living.


I'm writing by moonlight for the first (and I pray not only) time in my life. The clearness of the sky here is astounding. The night sky actually has form and detail here, just like daylight. I don't think I've ever truly understood the sea until today. or I did but didn't realize I did. Very alike, the sky and the sea. Not for nothing were pirates drawn to its seemingly boundless surface. Truly freedom is to be had at sea, and the shores are its gateway. It's a beautiful place in the day, but for me, it truly speaks for my inner soul at night. 


Tolkien wrote truth when he aligned the elves with nighttime and the stars,with Ithil, the moon. For only at night does memory truly come alive, memory and imagination. One does feel ever so truly insignificant and trivial when faced with the heavens, the stars, Ithil, and the sea simultaneously. What is there but the smell of the sea, the feel of the breeze, the white sand under the silver moon? All the trials of life are fully worthwhile for this. That this moment, this ethereal, ever-flowing, effervescent moment should be, however fleeting. I wouldn't have thought I'd find a holy place of nature at a resort. Of course I'm also far away from where the resort people intended I should be at this time. They'd rather I was off on the marina spending money. Or making money for them rather. The beach is closed after all. I should be gambling or drinking. Or watching some fucking movie with famous fucking people in it, about some irrelevant garbage. Don't get me wrong here, there have been some great movies. 


But Even the great ones, what are they in comparison to the rolling sapphire waves, topped in quicksilver that currently surround me? What are they to the immortal breath of the sea flowing into my body? Sitting here, pen and notebook in hand is doing more for my soul than 1000 movies ever could. Makes me think about love. I've been caught up, for months now, over the loss of my love, once my best friend. The failure of something that was once the most certain thing in my life...


This sea was rolling in then, it's rolling in now, and it will continue to roll in after my death, a mere drop in the bucket from now. Many have been born, lived, loved, and died, and still the sea rolls on, the moon reflects sunlight and somewhere, someone is smiling at it. I believe I will find love again. Whether far or soon is nothing. The sea rolls on.

The ethereal everflowing effervescent moment.
Turquoise waves whipped to white froth
Land upon stones, weathered and aged
beneath the moon and stars.
Deep indigo sky, moon of pearl.
The roar and whispers of the sae, the feathering touch of the wind,
billowing around my solitary promontory
Here am I
Saying to it all
welcome.

We still remember, we who dwell beneath the trees, the starlight on the western seas.

Ithil melloneva Ulmo

Ithil melloneva Ulmo
12/20/10
What are your vaunted towers, 
Your noise, your rushing
Your vast brightly lit bowers?

What indeed is your comparative worth?

Little
To the terror and beauty of the cresting waves.

Less
To the smell of gods in the rushing wind.

Nothing
To the whispers upon the silvering seas.

You may build your monumental palace
Fill it with noise, with light, with echoes and crashes.
Create and create until you've o'ertopped them all,
These titanic fortifications you've raised against Divines
and lesser men.

You are yet nothing
Chaff
Ashes
Returning to dust.

You are yet outdone by life as it is.
You turn your back on Her
But she is there
Waiting.
-David Atchison

A Moment Under The Moon

A Moment Under The Moon
12/21/10
Nassau, Bahamas
    The ethereal, ever-flowing, effervescent moment...
Turquoise waves, whipped to white foam
    Crash down upon gray and black stones
Weathered and aged
   Through the years that fled.

Depths of indigo sky hold aloft the pearlescent moon.
   The throaty roars and silken whispers of the sea,
And the feathered fingers of the wind caress me,
   Billowing around my lonely stone
That countless men and ages have known.

So here am I
   A passing phantom, or a sigh
Crying out before it all
   Hail and welcome.
-David Atchison

Limos

Limos
My gut so neglected
It devours the air.
I feel as a star about to nova
Empty to bursting
Full with nothing

When not gulping air
it gnaws itself
Turning inward for sustenance
I am unable to give.

The Serpent writhes
Rampant in my system
dulling my mind
weakening my limbs
Punishing failure
To provide.

Passing On

Passing On 10/24
(in memoriam, Evelyn Josephine McDonald Simmons) 
9/10/1922-10/23/10

10
A life is but a process of passing on gifts.

23
Passing on colds
Passing on coughdrops
Passing on humor
Passing on knowledge
Passing on love
Passing on life
Passing on kindness
Passing on.

10
And finally, in the end, we too must pass on.

We give back what has been gifted to us
for it is all only in passing, fleeting as snow.
In the end, if we've lived life well
If we've lived our lives sharing
We've little to give back, 
and so we pass on
Willing,
Peaceful,
Beautiful.

finis.

Sometimes

Sometimes
10/23

A single in a room of doubles.
A desert of precious liquid
Locked away. 

Sometimes,
everything you want is taken
so you're left
wanting
nothing.
nothing.
nothing.

Sometimes, it doesn't matter anymore and
you're alone,
reaching.
failing.
falling.
falling.

Sometimes,
every breath is dying,
every tree is falling,
every animal is roadkill and you just don't fucking want to deal with any of it anymore.

Sometimes,
Help is just around the corner,
but the corner just keeps moving.
faster.
faster.
faster.

Sometimes, 
You want to run away,
Get an instrument 
and live a short and painful but meaningful life
and fuck the consequences.

Sometimes, you hate who you are
what you're doing,
what you're not doing.
all of it can burn.

Friends.
They're supposed to be there.
for sometimes.
but what if they're not?
what if?

What if the what if's just keep piling on
and piling
on and 
on and 
on.

What then?

What should happen
Sometimes?

Careful With Your Machines, Please

Upon the accidental death of a chipmunk...

Careful With Your Machines, Please

A streak of brown in the morning light
No time to swerve, bad timing.
Bump.

What have I done, what chance is this?
Looking back, crazed motion
The coming night.

Neurons firing spastically
Beyond control.
No one’s home anymore.

I return on foot to the final scene
No more a spasm; a small brown
Lump.

Surrounded by a spray of life’s blood,
Forever frozen in its final act:
Trying to cross to the other side.

Truly we must fear what we can become.
Without even meaning to, we are capable of taking life.
Our machines grind away, and sometimes a life
Is seized by the gears, and without purpose.
Without meaning
Death.

Schlechter Lehrer

Schlechter Lehrer
10/7
It's strange to sit in this classroom
And watch student's spirits shrivel.
Staring ahead with dead eyes
We all sit absorbing information
That will be of little use to us
And we know it.

To affect matters the worse
The presentation is soul-crushing.
Stillborn, dead and dry
Before it could come alive.

He stands like a garden sprinkler
Spraying words out in an arc
that occasionally find's a mark,
but seldom. 

While a sprinkler indeed bestows life giving water,
If left running too long it will drown the grass.

The Emperor is naked
And we all know it.
Yet we sit here still,
slowly dying....